My Beloved Oppressor — Chapter 62

HEINER.

WHAT EXACTLY ARE YOUR FEELINGS FOR ME?

THERE'S NO FUTURE FOR US.

OUR PATH WILL BE FULL OF REMNANTS OF THE PAST.

ONLY BY PICKING UP THOSE SHARP FRAGMENTS ALONG THAT PATH,

AND FACING THE WOUNDS AND SCARS THEY LEFT IN OUR HEARTS,

CAN WE TRULY LOOK BACK ON EACH OTHER'S LIVES.

ANNETTE, I...

I NEVER WANTED TO SHOW YOU THIS MISERABLE SIDE OF ME.

BECAUSE YOU WERE TOO BEAUTIFUL AND PRECIOUS.

FOR A VERY LONG TIME, I'VE...

BUT AT THE SAME TIME, I WANTED YOU TO UNDERSTAND ME.

IF YOU TRULY LOVE ME...

AND REALLY CARE FOR ME...

EVER SINCE I WAS A LITTLE BOY...

I'VE THOUGHT ABOUT YOU CONSTANTLY,

FOR A VERY LONG TIME.

EVEN THOUGH I KNEW IT WAS IMPOSSIBLE.

YOU COULDN'T POSSIBLY LOVE ME.

ANNETTE.

YOU WERE THE ONE THING THAT I EVER WANTED... IN MY DESPICABLE LIFE.

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I KNEW I WASN'T SUPPOSED TO WANT YOU.

I KNEW THE MORE I LONGED FOR YOU, THE MORE MISERABLE I'D BECOME...

I THOUGHT MY LIFE WAS A MESS BECAUSE OF YOU.

BECAUSE EVERYTIME I SAW YOU SHINE,

I REALIZED HOW BROKEN MY OWN LIFE WAS.

EVEN IN THIS MOMENT, AS YOU'RE LOOKING AT ME,

YOU'RE SO NOBLE AND BEAUTIFUL THAT I WANT TO RUN AWAY.

WHY...

...DIDN'T YOU TELL ME FROM THE START?

WHY DIDN'T YOU TELL ME THAT YOU ALREADY KNEW ME?

AND ABOUT EVERYTHING YOU WENT THROUGH?

ANNETTE, THE FEELINGS I HAVE FOR YOU...

...IT'S NOT THE ROMANTIC KIND OF LOVE THAT YOU DREAMED OF.

MY FEELINGS HAVE BEEN NOTHING BUT AN OBSESSION,

TWISTED, MISGUIDED, AND UGLY FROM THE START.

AT FIRST, I WANTED TO TELL YOU ANYWAY.

I WANTED YOU TO UNDERSTAND MY LIFE.

I WISHED FOR YOU TO KNOW MY PAIN AND AGONY.

BUT WHEN I ACTUALLY MET YOU,

YOU WERE TOO PURE AND NOBLE.

AFTER ALL, YOU LIVED A LIFE COMPLETELY DIFFERENT FROM MINE.

WHEN I WAS WITH YOU,

I DIDN'T WANT TO SHOW THIS PATHETIC AND UGLY SIDE OF MYSELF.

THAT'S WHY I COULDN'T TELL YOU...

IT WAS DURING MY LAST MISSION,

BEFORE I WAS COMMISSIONED AS AN OFFICER.

EVEN WHEN I WAS TORTURED,

AND HAD TO KILL MY OWN COMRADES,

I WANTED TO STAY ALIVE.

I WANTED TO SURVIVE AND COME BACK TO SPEAK TO YOU.

TO YOU, THE PERFECT AND BEAUTIFUL WOMAN,

WHO WALKED THROUGH THE BLOOMING ROSE GARDEN,

UNDER THE DAZZLING SUNLIGHT.

THAT DAY,

I SHOULDN'T HAVE APPROACHED YOU.

SOMEONE LIKE ME WASN'T SUPPOSED TO WANT SOMEONE LIKE YOU.

WE WERE TOO DIFFERENT.

YOU WERE SOMEONE I COULDN'T DARE TO HAVE.

...YOU SAID YOU LOVED ME?

COULD YOU HAVE LOVED SOMEONE LIKE THIS?

WOULD YOU HAVE LET ME,

A MAN COVERED IN FLAWS AND WOUNDS, INTO YOUR PERFECT LIFE?

THAT'S RIGHT. EXACTLY.

THE LOYAL SUBORDINATE OF MARQUESS ROZENBERG, A PROMISING YOUNG OFFICER, AND A KIND AND GENTLE LOVER,

ACTUALLY TURNED OUT TO BE AN ORPHAN WHO WAS RAISED TO BE A KILLING MACHINE, WHO KILLED EVEN HIS OWN COMRADES, AND IS COVERED IN INDELIBLE SCARS.

A MAN LIKE ME, WHO IS SHAPED AND RUINED BY MY INFERIORITY AND BROKENNESS.

THERE'S NO WAY YOU WOULD'VE LOVED ME.

DOES THIS,

ANSWER YOUR QUESTION?

SOB...

HEINER...

OH, HEINER...

SOB

AH...

THIS NOBLE, BEAUTIFUL WOMAN,

IS CRYING LIKE THIS,

FOR AN INSIGNIFICANT MAN LIKE ME...?

MMMPH...

I WISH TIME COULD STOP RIGHT NOW,

SO THAT WE'RE FREE FROM THE PAST AND FUTURE,

NOT CARING ABOUT WHAT OTHERS THINK.

I WISH THIS MOMENT WOULD LAST FOREVER...

SOB

NGH...

ANNETTE...

ANNETTE...

I, I RUINED YOUR LIFE.

I MADE YOU LIKE THIS.

I DID THIS...

I'M FINALLY ABLE TO TELL YOU,

THE WORDS I'VE HELD DEEP IN MY HEART FOR SO LONG.

I'M SORRY...

DON'T FORGIVE ME...

DON'T EVER FORGIVE ME, ANNETTE...

ANNETTE. WHEN YOU SMILE...

IT SEEMED LIKE THE ENTIRE WORLD WAS BLOOMING...

HEINER...

HEINER...

I'M SORRY.

I SHOULDN'T HAVE SAID THAT TO YOU BACK THEN.

I SHOULDN'T HAVE SAID IT SO EASILY WITHOUT KNOWING ANYTHING.

I'M SO SORRY...

IT MUST'VE HURT SO MUCH...

AT THE END OF MY RUINED PATH,

THERE YOU WERE, BLOSSOMING AFTER OVERCOMING EVERYTHING.

AND THAT... WAS ENOUGH.